The Lovely Bones
My God, why didn't someone tell me not to read this? I don't know why I do this to myself. I just got done reading The Unwanted by Kien Nguyen, which is an awesome but horribly sad book. Then I read 102 Minutes: The untold story of the fight to survive inside the twin towers ( and we all know how that turns out). Now I read this.
I've always been a rather sensitive person; stories on the news & in the paper would always get me down, especially if it had to do with children or horses. (I can't take it when they show clips from a horserace where the horses fell down & got trampled). Well the TV news is horrible in general, which is why I really don't watch it. I prefer to get my news online, where I can pick and choose what horrifying stories I will read. My sensitivity, however, seems to have increased since becoming a mother. I think of everything in relation to Tiny E. I've fairly convinced myself that she's never leaving my sight again.
Then I pick up The Lovely Bones, dear Lord, and my heart is breaking. I couldn't sleep last night. I do a lot of my reading before bed; I can't really fall asleep otherwise. Last night I got up and put the baby in our bed until she fell asleep again. Then I put her in the bassinette next to my bed. I would like to shove her back up into the womb to make absolutely certain she is safe, but alas, that technology is still years away. I'd like to stop reading, but now I can't. I have to know that the family has gotten some sort of closure (is that the right word? That's the word you use when a relationship has ended...doesn't seem like that's a strong enough word here...) to the whole situation. If you have read the book, I just got to the part where her dog gets to heaven. And I cried a river.
Don't get me wrong, it's an excellent book. That's probably why it's affecting me this way. I just need my next book to be a little more lighthearted. It doesn't have to be Erma Bombeck or anything, I just need a break. Anyone have any recommendations????
I've always been a rather sensitive person; stories on the news & in the paper would always get me down, especially if it had to do with children or horses. (I can't take it when they show clips from a horserace where the horses fell down & got trampled). Well the TV news is horrible in general, which is why I really don't watch it. I prefer to get my news online, where I can pick and choose what horrifying stories I will read. My sensitivity, however, seems to have increased since becoming a mother. I think of everything in relation to Tiny E. I've fairly convinced myself that she's never leaving my sight again.
Then I pick up The Lovely Bones, dear Lord, and my heart is breaking. I couldn't sleep last night. I do a lot of my reading before bed; I can't really fall asleep otherwise. Last night I got up and put the baby in our bed until she fell asleep again. Then I put her in the bassinette next to my bed. I would like to shove her back up into the womb to make absolutely certain she is safe, but alas, that technology is still years away. I'd like to stop reading, but now I can't. I have to know that the family has gotten some sort of closure (is that the right word? That's the word you use when a relationship has ended...doesn't seem like that's a strong enough word here...) to the whole situation. If you have read the book, I just got to the part where her dog gets to heaven. And I cried a river.
Don't get me wrong, it's an excellent book. That's probably why it's affecting me this way. I just need my next book to be a little more lighthearted. It doesn't have to be Erma Bombeck or anything, I just need a break. Anyone have any recommendations????
posted by kroushlconflict at 10:30 AM
1 Comments:
If you haven't read bigSoda's copy of a Brief History of Nearly Everything (the Bill Bryson book) - that's a fun read. There's some dark/scariness there but a lot of humor too. Anytime you can show giants in the world of science or history with warts on their asses, that's some good reading.
I know what you mean about sleep at this stage in your little angel's life. It took me almost 3 years to reclaim my ability to sleep. I have sleep problems anyway. You have a sympathetic (or at least pathetic) ear in me.
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